my message box is being all weird so I’m replying in a post like this so I hope you come across it and it helps you out. I understand what you are going through and not having many people that you can count on can be very difficult. I myself only have two friends I can talk to about things, one that knows absolutely everything. it is important to keep in mind that it is not your fault, people tend to just use people and then move on when they get bored. when this was happening to me I began to blame myself. I’m too fat, too ugly, too weird, too fucked up for anyone to wanna be friends with. it lead to me burning my self and starving myself. situations like this can lead to self hate which creates a daily struggle. hold close your one guy friend and your mother, they may not always seem like much but let them know how much they mean to you. having them there for you will help you a lot through this because you are not alone, having one good friend is more important then having lots of fake ones. people who are going to truly there for you will find there way to you, it just takes time. love yourself and your friend. your seem very sweet and others will see this. once they realize that their ‘new, cool’ friends are not really there for them they’ll see what a great friend they missed. be strong and love yourself, things will get better. I promise.